And the winner is.....

I had an interview this week on Tuesday for the permanent position being offered at STMA. It wasn't the best interview ever. I was sick, and had just finished teaching for three straight hours with students who were (seemingly) extra whiny. (To be fair to them, I hadn't slept well the night(s) beforehand, so I was probably extra whiny as well.) I found that being interviewed by four people who have been your superiors and colleagues for an entire year is fairly awkward/intimidating. When they ask questions like "How would your colleagues describe you?" when they are present in the room is awkward. So it just felt weird to answer some of the questions. I was really nervous about rambling, and probably overly so. The interview ended up being very short--also kind of awkward/unexpected.

So I left feeling awkward and embarrassed about my performance as a professional in that interview.

I finished the day teaching and then waited two days to find out the results..in the mean time having to work with these people who interviewed me. It was weird. People are different when they know some bad news that you don't. So I knew that they knew that I didn't do so hot in the interview. Needless to say, I was anxious to hear how I did, and was honestly expecting to be told that they had chosen two other candidates to fill the positions. It was that mix of not wanting to know and maybe doing whatever I could to avoid being talked to about it (maybe they could just email me?)..but also just wanting to know so that I could stop thinking and over-analyzing and stressing out about the whole thing. (I [almost] memorized Matthew 6 and Philippians 4 in two days.) (ha.)

Anyway, the conclusion of all of this came yesterday after school. I was offered the long-term sub position for next fall at STMA. It's a one-year stint, just like what I'm doing now. Just not the permanent position like I was hoping for. I guess on one had I'm disappointed that I didn't present myself as strongly as I had hoped to in my interview. On the other hand, I'm really, really thankful to have a full time job again for next year in a place that I'm familiar with. Especially after a crappy interview. There's a lot to be thankful for!

So, there it is. A lot can happen in a year! I'm looking forward to NOT being a "new" teacher anymore, and to have the opportunity to come back to a great (truly) school district next fall.
Thank you to those of you who have been praying for me. The Lord is faithful!